of time.
08.31.04 (9:04 am) [edit]so, i have to get used to not being single. its been a long time, but i think i can manage it...lol. its nice to have someone to go home to again. didn't realize how much i had missed it. ha.
work is interesting...my co-workers and i all talk shit about the new bosses when we get here in the morning...its fun. mostly, its just that the new bosses really don't have a clue how a manufacturing business works. the guy who is basically in charge of things now is having his first experience as a VP...i guess he likes it enough, but hes can't give an educated quote to our customers for custom mats since he can't seem to get a grasp on the measurements. then theres the other main man...the guy in charge of the finances that i don't handle. he really manages to piss me off when he starts telling me what to do. i just wanna be like: "look rex, i know what i'm doing...i've been working here for years doing the same fucking thing so shut the fuck up and let me do it!" i'll grant that they did give me a bit of a raise, but thats not going to win any hearts/minds. thats just going to make my wallet fuller...and me a little bit happier since i'll be able to afford shit again.
the people at the bar are doing alright. still going on with their 40 yr old hick talk. y'know the type: "got me a duck down there." - thats a pool term for an easy shot, but equally as easy to miss since you get overly confident about it. but, yeah, that doesn't really matter. pat gave me a joint yesterday - he does that almost all the time (hes one of the bartenders). i love that bar.
i still have yet to get my internet hooked up back at home. hopefully that fuckin thing will come in the mail soon. until then, i can't work on the zine very much. it really sucks. ah well, heres to another fine day.
"The happiness of a man in this life does not consist in the absence but in the mastery of his passions." - Alfred Lord Tennyson
...HA!
08.27.04 (2:07 pm) [edit]:roll:
i don't know if anyone reads this crap anymore, but i feel like writing just in case some lonely dumbass misses my posts. i don't mean that. you aren't lonely. though you could be...in which case you would probably try to hold me responcible, but i don't care since you don't exist. at least not in my world. until you leave a comment, you're just another number on my hit counter. yup yup. how does that make you feel? don't go gettin all warm and fuzzy on me, that just doesn't cut it. in fact, nothing cuts it! its uncutable! is that a word? like, when something can't be cut...whats that called? uncutable, right? although i suppose it makes no sense...much like this post...and much like the posts before it.
anyway, life is going good. woke up happy today...unlike most other days. wait, i can't really say that considering that i've been waking up on the good side for awhile now. i finally got a tv in my room...dvd player and all that jazz. you gotta love it when your parents move out of their house and offer you all the crap that they don't want anymore. its almost like going to a spectacular store that has everything you could ever want...the only exception being that shit from your parents is free. woot woot. now all i need to do is buy myself a better computer. mine has been a bit on the laggy side and its really beginning to irk me. thats a funny word: irk. i never use that word, but its cool...i'm going to start using it more. doesn't it irk you when you pull into a drive thru and the guy in front of you ordered everything on the menu for himself...then he finally gets his food, but his car breaks down right there so he decides that there is nothing to be done and starts eating?! that happened to my brother and i the other day. yup. that was so fucking shitty. ah well, whatcha gonna do? nothing! why? because there is nothing to be done. the world is filled with stupid people...thats why we spin at an angle.
and then theres gravity.
kill-a-jackass
08.23.04 (12:39 pm) [edit]well, this past weekend i had some fun in bed. and it was kinda nice since its been quite awhile. however, i felt bad afterwards. yup, thats right...a guy feeling bad for messin around with a girl. that doesn't happen too often. its just that this girl has stronger feelings than i have for her. i am now stuck in the situation of having to tell her that i don't really want to be in any sort of relationship. i came to the conclusion that i have quite a bit to work on in my life before working on a relationship. so, i guess we'll see how that one goes over.
i should have gotten fired today. i had a run-in with the boss after taking friday off without calling in. so, when i came in today i totally expected to get fired. however, that didn't happen. they told me that, with the knowledge i have of business, i am a major asset to this company. hahahahaha, that was so unexpected. they said that next time i need to call in, but that i am "too good to let go." i'd like to know where they're getting their information from. hmm.
nothing new on other fronts, same old life...
*snore*
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08.16.04 (9:42 am) [edit]the weekend was good.
we've got a girl staying with us right now. a friend of mine who i have known only a short time. we're supposed to be looking for a place together, but we have yet to do anything remotely close to that. its nice to have a smiling face greet me in the mornings and evenings, i've missed that. and while there is nothing more than a friendship, it feel strangely like a relationship. its strange to feel chemistry again...if that is what it is. its also funny that she appears to be the type of person i'm looking for at the moment...i sense the feeling is mutual.
i spent the weekend on the couch with kendal, watching tv and playing video games. god, that sounds like the life of a teenager...or someone that just has nothing to worry about, but i am neither...so i'm not sure what i was thinking. we got a little drunk and had a lot of fun.
i woke up in a really good mood this morning, so my week is off to a good start. i like having a girl in the house, it makes for a bit more interesting of time. there are some things i used to do that i can't feel so free doing...lol. maybe i'll make a move and make the whole experience a bit more "interesting."
besides that, nothing has really changed in this life of mine. just been trying to work on the Dirt site...gotta hurry up and get the first issue done. i hate running behind schedule. ack.
"Work is the curse of the drinking classes."
Oscar Wilde
a few days.
08.12.04 (12:47 pm) [edit]well, its been a few days since i posted, but i feel like posting now...don't know why. be quiet, stop laughing.
i should really be taking this time to work with the dirt team forum, but i'm too tired and unfocused. besides, i'm at work and would just end up typing like this. i'm just going to work on that site from home etc.
my friend kendal needs a room-mate. wait, she needs a room period. so, i think we're going to start looking for a place together since i'd actually like to get out of the apt i'm in now. i got a promotion with a raise so i'm happy and able...not to mention more than willing to do what i want. haha.
woah, i just realized i don't actually have anything to say.
toss me a line.
-chris
yee-haw
08.07.04 (7:32 pm) [edit]ok, i tried...really, i did...to stay away that is. though it doesn't matter really since i probably won't post again for a few weeks after this.
well, i'm in texas right now with my oh-so-texan family...no sarcasm intendid. seriously, this is as texan as texas gets. it amuses me everytime i visit since i've lived elsewhere for so long. all the hick sayings and right-wing humour thats a little too right-wing for me. or the way my uncle will take any side of a conversation as long as its the opposite of where you're coming from. or maybe the way my grandmother confuses my name with one of my other brothers: "arth--i mean benja--i mean christopher." i love my family, i really do. i think its just that i've become a little too californian for their texas blood...though it still tickles my veins.
another thing that really amuses me is how texan texas likes to be. every bottle of beer has a star and exclaims how texan it is. or how the flatbed pick-up is now the offical truck of texas. i mean, seriously, we went to a restaurant tonight and the server was wearing a name tag that read "big country" ok, that should speak for itself.
anyway, i hung out with all my moms side of the family today. its always interesting...especially with my uncle bob who once considered himself a hippie and it proud of the fact that he has been to nudist colonies. or the greatness to be found within my cousin lisa who once almost threw me out because i disagreed with bush's policies. then again, my uncle rusty will take anything you say and turn it against you..trying to find a fault in every point you make and not allowing you to fully answer after he poses a question. and i absolutely love my cousin wendy who, like my brothers and i, is proud that she is one of the black sheep in this family. lol
well, yeah, thats where i am right now - texas. where everythings bigger...and thats no lie. especially when it comes to ones head. uh-oh, was that a pun?
Last Blog
08.03.04 (3:03 pm) [edit]This is my last blog. Don't know when...if ever...I'll be back. I doubt I will. No time for this stuff anymore. I'll leave you with a song by Modest Mouse.
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TEETH LIKE GOD'S SHOESHINE
From the top of the ocean - Yeah
From the bottom of the sky -Goddamn
Well I get claustrophobic
I can you know that I can
And he said:
"I am not allowed much danger
keep in line you're an old friend stranger.
you'll burn me in effigy and I'll burn you in effigy."
A rattle snake up in buffalo Montana
he bit the leg of the old sheriff
Ha! That boy fell down on his harelip -Ow! Ow!
Well I might be wrong
but you you tag along
and we we all been wronged
and I get dizzier by the mile
Said hell! The money's spent
went to the county line
and paid the rent said "Uh-oh."
Oh! If you could compact your conscience
Oh! And you might.
Oh! If you could bottle and sell it you might have done
Oh! And you might
Oh! If you could compact your conscience
and sell it save it for another time
you might have to use it.
And the televisions gone
Go to the grocery store, buy some new friends
and find out the beginning, the end, and the best of it
Well, do you need a lot of what you've got to survive?
Here's the man with teeth like God's shoeshine
He sparkles shimmers shines
let's all have another Orange Julius
Thick syrup standing in lines
The malls are the soon to be ghost towns
so long, farewell, good-bye
Take 'em all for the long ride
and you'll go around town
no one wants to be uptight anymore
You can be ashamed
or be so proud of what you've done
but not no one, not now, not ever or anyone
take 'em all for the sense of happiness
that comes from hurting deep down inside
Or you can walk th line and give a shit
I'm on the corner of this and this and this and this
and its all all wrong, and its all all gone
Well, you can add it up and give a shit
go to the family doctor
Its all worth it
and its all all gone, and its all all wrong
Here's the man with teeth like God's shoeshine
He sparkles shimmers shines
let's all have another Orange Julius
Thick syrup standing in lines
The malls are the soon to be ghost towns
so long, farewell, good-bye
And the telephone goes off
pick to receiver up, try to meet ends
and find out the beginning, the end and the best of it