here i am
05.28.04 (12:34 pm) [edit]so, today turned out to be a really lazy day. took the day off work seeing as how there was nothing to do (i called to see if they needed me today). now i'm at my friend jon's house, sitting in front of a pirate radio set-up. its pretty cool.
lastnight was pretty cool, met up with a friend i hadn't seen for a really long time. didn't really do a whole lot, but played some chess and some xbox...kind of boring, but kind of cool when put in perspective.
right now i'm watching (listening rather) to the news. it pisses me off and i don't know why i care so much. the news doesn't tell me the entire story about anything so why should i pay so much attention? i suppose maybe its because i need at least a dose of whats going on in the world aka "current events." i think that the upcoming elections are going to get much dirtier. ah well.
so, here i am, lazing about...wondering what to do this weekend. hmmm, there are so many choices. maybe i'll go down to santa monica or something. anything is better than this at this point. lol
stupid quiz time
05.27.04 (2:05 pm) [edit]
cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed
What Sign of Affection Are You?
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CONTEST. ACTUAL PRIZE MONEY!
05.27.04 (9:03 am) [edit]so, i am starting another movie. i just recently got a new video camera and some extra cash, so i am going to make it usefull. however, i am a little bit stumped on a good one. lately i have just been shooting mock commercials and documentary-type footage. i also have a documentary that i have been working on for a LONG time...i am hoping to be able to release in the next year...we've been having some contract battles so its been hard to get anywhere.
anyway, since i have directors block i am going to test something out here and see if it gets anywhere.
SCREENPLAY CONTEST
here are the guidelines:
1. nothing related to pornography.
2. nothing thats going to take $20,000 to make.
3. keep it kind of short, maybe no more than 30 pages.
thats all pretty much, any genre is acceptable.
[b]ENTRIES DO NOT HAVE TO BE IN SCREENPLAY FORMAT. YOU CAN SEND IN GOOD CHARACTER ANALYSIS AND PLOT SUMMARY FOR ME TO PLACE IN THE CORRECT FORMAT.[/b]
if you are interested, please email me some information about yourself and i will gladly send my postal address for submissions to be sent to. my email:
camayes@juno.com
the winner stands to recieve $400 for their work(NOT TBUCKS). get crackin!
Plagued by Irksome Eye-Twitching?
05.26.04 (10:40 am) [edit]i am sure many of you, if not all, have had problems with eye-twitching. it is probably one of the more annoying things to deal with. you could just be sitting there, looking at the computer, and all of the sudden your eye twitches! it feels so wierd and is impossible to stop on your own. your eyelid decides it wants to move and will stop at nothing until you are about to rip the fucker out.
now, i got a little curious about these twitching eyes...what is it caused by and can it lead to more serious problems? or is it just a really annoying situation that you're going to have to put up whether you like it or not?
[b]What Causes Eye - Twitching? (also called twitching eye)[/b]
although the causes of eye twitching can’t always be determined, a number of every day factors can contribute. some doctors believe that stress, fatigue, irritation in the eye, or consuming excess amounts of caffeine can cause eye-twitching.
[b]Simple Treatments for Eye - Twitching (also called eye twitch)[/b]
simple measures like hot baths, warm or cold compresses, homeopathy, and rinsing or lubricating eye drops can be beneficial. it’s also important to ensure that the problem isn’t being caused by sustained squinting as a result of poor vision. have regular optometric examinations, and if you have a vision problem, wear corrective lenses and consider starting a natural vision improvement program.
[b]When to Worry About Eye - Twitching[/b]
if the problem persists, especially over a period of several weeks or more, a comprehensive eye examination from an optometric professional is worthwhile to ensure that no other problem is occurring in the eye. the technical term for any kind of eye - twitching is “blephrospasm,” and persistent blephrospasm may be indicative of a more serious neurological condition. in these severe instances, medical treatment such as pharmaceuticals or surgery may be necessary.
i hope i have been able to help some of you twitchy folks understand your problem just a little bit more.
tblog.
05.26.04 (8:36 am) [edit]well, i think i might stay. i've been weighing out the good and the bad...though there really wouldn't be much bad. tblog is where i got my blogging start and the people are great. i can't just give up on this thing, gotta run with it...see what else i can make happen.
i enjoy blogging for many reasons, mostly just as an outlet for my creative side. i like having a place on the internet where i can express myself as much or as little as i would like. people share their opinions on my opinions and such...just hope they are all keeping honest ;-). its really cool having a blog though. i enjoy reading other blogs as much as i enjoy writing my own. sometimes you may find that people open up more on their blogs than they might in a conversation. you can learn so much by reading other blogs its not even funny...unless the blog is humerous.
anyway, people here are really friendly. seems like a good thing to be apart of. i feel kind of funny writing this because its ONLINE and not in the physical world. its pretty much wondering if i should keep this one more hobby or not. plus, this is a great way to meet people from crazy places.
i like tblog. i'm going to stay.
reasoning
05.25.04 (1:41 pm) [edit]so, here i am...at work...trying to reason out if i should stick with tblog or not. i recently started a couple of other blogs because it seems as if tblog may crumble. however, i am a very big advocate for tblog. people should have noticed this when i was defending tblog to the death on tblurt. i was trying to keep people informed so that they may stay and the tblog community can grow ever larger.
it just seems like there is not much going on here nowadays. i don't want to leave tblog, i like it here. i like posting random ass crap and seeing what people say about it.
i don't think i'll end up giving up on tblog, but i probably won't be posting here as often. i will always remain a tblog lover though.
i guess i need peoples help on making a full decision about this...so, gimme some comments explaining some ups and downs and why i should stay or go. thanks.
-chris
LOVE
05.24.04 (1:56 pm) [edit]i think i posted this before, but tblurters inspired me to post it again.
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like clear skies
sunny days
daydreams...
like velvet roses
intoxicating perfume
pure thoughts...
my eyes touch your movement
like a violin
innocent notes
burning passion...
i listen to your voice
like a lullaby
an infant sleeping sound...
may i take your hand
have this dance
tell you how i feel?
sworn to secrecy
forbidden by time,
etched in stone
carved in an ancient tongue...
i can barely breathe.
IMPORTANT!!!!
05.24.04 (1:35 pm) [edit]Please refer to the following links for information on the upcoming 2005 Military Draft.
[url=http://www.bushdraft.com]Bush Draft[/url]
[url=http://www.congress.org/congr...]More Information[/url]
ch-ch-changes...
05.24.04 (11:32 am) [edit]yeah, decided to go through with changing the layout. its going to get ugly, just bear with me. let me know about the coolness or shitiness of the layout as i go. the header is subject to change...as is everything. so, yeah, cool. lemme know what i need and what needs to go.
thanks.
-chris.
TRUE AND FALSE. with a dose of random bullshit, but not really bullshit - its all true.
05.24.04 (10:17 am) [edit]:shock:
Americans spend more on cat food every year than on baby food.
The average lifespan of a $50 bill is five years.
A female ninja is called a "kunoichi."
The first college on record to use the word "campus" to describe its grounds was Princeton. "Campus" is Latin for "field."
The longest alphabet is Cambodian. It has 74 letters.
In Calama, a town in the Atacama Desert of Chile, it has never rained.
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TRUE AND FALSE
First person to answer the following correctly will get some cool ass shit.
1. Sororities are outlawed on certain campuses because local "brothel laws" prohibit more than a specified number of females from living together.
2. During Dan White's murder trial, his defense lawyer successfully argued that White's judgment had been impaired due to his consumption of Twinkies and other junk foods.
3. The name of the San Diego Wild Animal Park's Wgasa Bush Line railway was taken from a crude acronym.
4. A clever consumer earned a lifetime of free air travel by cashing in on a Healthy Choice pudding promotion.
5. A store made good on its offer to sell stereos for "299 bananas" when customers proffered the real thing as payment.
woah, watch out.
05.24.04 (8:28 am) [edit]too many breaks, not enough work. haha, i suppose thats how it goes on a monday. oh well, another week to go through and it'll all be ok. not that this same thing isn't going to happen the week after...so whatever.
anyway, lets take a look at the weekend. what happened worth mentioning? well, i suppose there really isn't anything worth mentioning about the weekend. its apparently springtime. thats what i hear from friends who are in heat and "in love." i think its just a cop-out for something else...something more evil and mysterious. i don't know what that could possibly be. hmmm.
i guess i've been "hired" as a "spy" for my friend jen. she wants me to tell her if my friend russ shows any sort of interest in her. ah, back to the days of highschool. you know, i could have sworn highschool was over, guess thats just another life trick. dammit though, its not supposed to be this way...its not cool to get all "aww" over someone and act all shy about it. you like the person, tell the person. what do you have to lose? go jen. do now. no more speakin with me as if we ARE in highschool. that ended like 7 years ago. lol, fuck it.
besides that, this past weekend really didn't hold anything special? how was everyone elses weekend? good, yes? yes, good.
blogness!!
05.21.04 (11:53 am) [edit]alrighty y'all. shameless self promotion.
GO TO THE FOLLOWING BLOGS FOR SOME COOL SHIZAT.
[url=http://chrismayes.blogspot.co...]Personal[/url] - my more serious side.
[url=http://cmaze.blogspot.com]The Wrath[/url] - a team blog. x0br0ken0x, krazedone, anonymoux, and brogonzo are all contributors.
the return of the blog
05.21.04 (11:31 am) [edit]dun dun DUNNNNNN
yes, its a wonder that we try to type in sounds sometimes. very interesting indeed.
anyway, tblog is back up and running so we can all show our teeth again. smile dammit, not anger like. fuck you for thinking otherwise...unless you weren't thinking otherwise...then good on ya. wow, making aussie comments now. there must be something wrong.
soooooo, what the hell am i typing on this for? i don't have anything really to talk about. oh! i know why! cuz tblog is back up!!! woohoo!
Americans on average eat 18 acres of pizza every day. my god, thats a lot of freakin pizza. its kind of nasty if you think about it. americans are the most unhealthy people in the world...unless you want to start talking about places like zimbabwe. i'm just saying the people that are WILFULLY this unhealthy. we fill ourselves with nothing but junk every day. i'll grant that we also eat lots of vegetables and protein and other do good minerals...but the next thing you know, we're shoving our faces full of sugar and shit...just waiting for out teeth to rot and out stomachs to burn. ah well, i suppose if it tastes good eat it - or drink - thats my motto.
Think Long. By: Modest Mouse
05.20.04 (1:20 pm) [edit]very short, but i love it!
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ping-pong
sit and think for a while and you'll realize that you'll still die.
if you're not thinking at all i dont know why you're alive.
ping-pong
Blogger
05.20.04 (11:37 am) [edit]so, until tblog gets on its feet again...which will be very soon, i have started a project at blogger. a "team blog." i like that option.
basically, it is going to be a mix of serious and sillyness...all posts will be made by tbloggers who want in. all you have to do is tmail me your email address and i'll set it up.
this is going to be a lot of fun, methinks. and this doesn't mean leaving tblog...so dont worry.
http://cmaze.blogspot.com" title="http://cmaze.blogspot.com" target="_blank"http://cmaze.blogspot.com is the address...it will change in a bit.
get your clicks in.
PILSENKRAUT (pilsen - imagine, to fantasize, to have a vision, kraut - plant, shrub)
05.18.04 (2:05 pm) [edit]yes, thats right. here you will discover how to make pilsenkraut. sound familiar? pilsner...hint hint. lol. anyway, if you ever have the tools and time, just make yourself some brew! mmmmm, good stuff...
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[Experiment with utmost care - tropanes can be deadly when used wrong.]
On making the real pilsen, as told by Christian Ratsch
Transcribed from tape by N. Ipo
Henbane has been used for several purposes. The ancient greeks used it for divination in Delfoi, the english have used it for hunting chicken (hence the henbane). The celts used it to kill old people unable to travel with the tribe. Germans used to it to make pilsener, beer. 'What?' you ask, 'I thought they used hops in making beer.' True, but this was before the Czecks invented new brewing technique in 19th century, using a special yeast and lots of hops producing beer with yellow color and bitter taste known today as pilsener. The original pilsener was brewed with henbane instead of hops, hallucinogenic plant instead of an sedative. It quite easy to brew henbane-beer - pilsen.
Pilsener
20 liters of water
1 liter of malt (Use readymade malt)
1/2 liter honey
40 grams of dried henbane leaves
yeast for beer (amount depends on the product)
Find container thats big enough. Cook the henbane in water for 5 to 10 minutes. Dissolve the malt in couple of liters of water, dissolve the honey, add henbane leaf-water. Add yeast. It might be useful to add a little bit more yeast than recommended because the tropane-alkaloids affect the yeast. Don't close the container, it may explode [because of the pressure, I suppose --N. Ipo]. According to Ratsch, 40 grams of dried henbane leaves is enough to kill a person, so don't drink all the 20 liters all by yourself. =)
Brew should start fermenting after 1 and 1/2 days and the fermentation should be finished after 4 or 5 days. Red pilsener beer is now ready. You can also bottle it, add a few drops of honey to each bottle and let ferment for another week or two. Serve on easter, eclipses and solistices, preferably chilled. Store as normal beer.
Do not use belladonna as an substitute, it contains atropine, which, according to Ratsch is, "no fun". Henbane contains mainly scopolamine, especially if it is dried. Scopolamine might work nicely for you, or it might not - one just has to find out if one is a 'scopolamine-person'.
Christian Ratsch lectures about the pilsener: "Well, I have to tell you some of the effects, too - [snickers, laughs] - when we drink it we usually gather with some friend, 6-8 people, and, er, then we have these big horns, you know, real drinking horns, and... er.. Its the best thing to drink from because the drinking horn, its, its like I have one like this size, very, very nice... You touch it and it feels like an erotic body or somethin very [mutter]... So you drink from this, and then you pass it around. This was actually what our ancestors did for their rituals, they had these horns ,drinking it , giving-, saying something, a greeting of a god or greeting to the ancestors... ...And they drink so much, and it is said, in the sources, "until the gods are among them." So, what does it mean? Its an entheogenic experience. Well, we did the same thing, and it turned out, that, ..er well, the gods weren't there, but we were elevating to them. So, er, the effect er is like, it starts to loose up your body and you feel like really smooth and really relaxed and then you have nice body sensations and nice sensations on your skin and you think and this could be nice for some erotic adventures and you close your eyes and suddenly and suddenly you stay in your red mist and you feel your body elevated. Its really beautiful, intresting feeling, and what is very amazing: you dont get alcoholic effects from it, and this beer has about 4 to 5 percent alcohol... ...I drink about 2.5-3 liters of henbane beer to get the full effect. You can drink more of course, but you may start to hallucinate badly. The hallucinations caused by nightshade plants are very unpleasant most of the time. Because - this is what I call the 'true hallucinations' - you see something which is just not there, you're not aware about you're hallucinating it. So you start to hallucinate scenes from real life. I observed an doctor under the influence of scopolamine, and he was just sitting there for four hours writing recepies and I observed a teacher and he was sitting at his table for hours and, and doing some corrections and test - but there was nothing [laughters] He was just totally... Just total hallucination. And thats a typical sign of over-dosage - you dont wanna do that. I found the beer the best, er, the easiest way to control the amount of tropane alkaloids you want to ingest..."
[About Henbane]
"Its very easy to grow and its beautiful plant and its very unique how it looks like with its long buds and flowers. Its -if you see the plant you will know its a magic one. Its really amazing."
[About brewing]
"Q:When youre cooking the henbane does it matter if you boil it? [?] Ratsch: Well I boil it for acouple of minutes, well, the tropane alkaloids will stay, they are very stable, strong molecyles. Q: [Mumble, mumble mumble] Ratsch: No, I, er um when I figured out how to the henbane beer I started to brew mandrake beer. And, er, [laughs] thats very interesting too. You can use the same recipe and insteads of fourty grams of dried leaves of henbane you use about fourty grams of the dried root of mandrake the same way. And er thats pretty strong and interesting. I found the effect different from henbane. And the chemistry of mandrake is er quite different from other nightshade plants. There has been very little experimentation done with mandrake... ...I just recently did some reseach, literature search for personal experience with mandrake - doesn't exist. Its really amazing..."
just when were you planning on letting me know?
05.18.04 (1:38 pm) [edit]yeah, well, as we all know tblog has been down recently. it was a little bit of a bother at first, but i dealt with it. i'm just pissed that i didn't have much to do in the ways of procrastination (spl?). oh well, it happens. probably better that i didn't blog or anything seeing as how i am at work...though there isn't much to be done today. time is moving rather quickly, i'm happy about that...go home and veg out somewherez. today has been a good day, hell, its been a good week. this is just the second day, but i can tell its going to be a rewarding week.
i'm happier now than i have been in a really long time. it feels so good. things are just going great. i do have a lot of stuff to do, but i'm not going to let any of it get me down...thats just not worth it.
i've decided to get back out there into the dating game...though i never really liked it much. the benefits are amazing though. have someone there to sleep with (sleep, seriously), hold, kiss, love, and just be with. its great...no feeling like it. and its spring, no time like it.
i just realized that in other blogs i have said i will discuss certain things, but i don't believe i have followed through. i think i'm going to have to start doing that, otherwise i'll be nothing more than a talker...yeah, i think?
anyways, you all have a great day and stay tuned for some randomness!!!
poems.
05.17.04 (2:12 pm) [edit]alrighty, so, krazedone was looking around in my aim profile links and found some of my REALLY old poetry. she wanted me to post some, so here i am posting some.
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[this poem was written while i was trippin on x. it was written because i had started thinking about my ex at the time who i had broken up with about a month before.]
The dotted quilt above my head
made of the finest satin
and the brightest
diamonds...
That is where she sleeps
The white whipped cream
that floats in the day
and catches the sun...
That is where she walks
Below where there is no quilt
there is no warmth
and no whipped cream...
That is where she lives
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[this one was written the first time i had truly experienced nature in all its glory. i was 16 and out in the middle of a jungle....go figure.]
Have you ever stopped
to listen...
To the sound of the
birds in the trees?
Have you ever stopped
to gaze...
At the mountains
under a blanket of mist
far in the distance?
Have you ever stopped
to drink...
From the spring
as it flows endlessly
through the field?
I have...
And this tells me
I have lived...
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[this poem is about depression. yeah, i felt like i was losing my mind...seriously, i didn't know what the hell was going on. i was 16.]
hanging by a thread
from a rope
that withers slowly,
looking down
wondering when
i'm going to fall...
theres a light down there
somewhere...
hearing voices
screaming
shouting,
listening to songs
exploring each word
blindly searching...
theres a light down there
an angel waiting
somewhere...
trying to dry
black tears falling
trying to smile
greeted by sorrow...
theres a light down there
an angel waiting
to take my hand
somewhere...
hanging by a thread
from a rope
that withers slowly,
looking down
wondering when
i'm going to fall,
trying to climb up...
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Comments are welcome and appreciated. Any type of comment. Do these suck? Are they good? Tell me, I wanna know.
whats the reference number?
05.17.04 (9:38 am) [edit]its been a good weekend, i hope you all enjoyed it as much as i did. i jammed out with a band, laid down some good fuckin vocals...besides that, just chilled in the confines of the apartment. had good times all around, just chillin and smokin some dub. aight. heres your random junk..........
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"Complaining is good for you as long as you're not complaining to the person you're complaining about." - Lynn Johnston
"How helpless we are, like netted birds, when we are caught by desire!" - Belva Plain
"The last time anybody made a list of the top hundred character attributes of New Yorkers, common sense snuck in at number 79." - Douglas Adams
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Albert Einstein did not talk until he was four and read until he was seven. His teacher described him as 'mentally slow, unsociable, and adrift forever in his foolish dreams'.
Television was switched off for six years during the second World War. In June 1946, it started again with the words, "As I was saying before we were so rudely interrupted...".
If a statue in the park of a person on a horse has both front legs in the air, the person died in battle. If the horse has one front leg in the air, the person died as a result of wounds received in battle. If the horse has all four legs on the ground, the person died of natural causes.
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True and False
CONGRATS AGAIN TO x0br0ken0x!!!
1. In 1984 a newspaper announced a Daylight Saving Time contest to see who could save the most daylight. T
2. A man committed suicide because he mistakenly believed his lotto numbers had come up the one week he didn't play them. T
3. A woman killed her husband over his bidding and play of a bridge hand. T
4. Ingestion of some types of margarine increases the risk of coronary disease. T
5. Africans were horrified by an American baby food company's product packaging. T
6. Finland once banned Donald Duck because he wears no pants. T
you might get a little better air
05.14.04 (2:53 pm) [edit]if you turn yourself into a cloud.
and so the story goes.
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"Creativity can solve almost any problem. The creative act, the defeat of habit by orginality, overcomes everything." - George Lois
"You know what charm is: a way of getting the answer yes without having asked any clear question." - Albert Camus
"No passion so effectually robs the mind of all its powers of acting and reasoning as fear." - Edmund Burke
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facts. things you need to know if you have no purpose for knowledge.
Lobsters have blue blood.
Starfish have as manye eyes as they do legs. Some starfish have up to as many as 20!!!
Giraffes don't have vocal chords.
The leading cause of death in fruit flies is constipation.
A bee could travel 4 million miles at 7 mph on the energy it would obtain from 1 gallon of nectar.
Worms have 6 hearts.
Earwigs' penises have an unfortunate tendency to snap off during sex. So one earwig family has come up with a cunning solution: develop a spare penis for use in emergencies. Previously, entomologists assumed the second penis on the male of Ansilobabidiae earwig was non-functioning, because it points in the wrong direction. Now Yoshitaka Kamimura of Tokyo Metropolitan University has proved them wrong. He has found that males with their "good" penis damaged or broken off can still inseminate females with the reserve penis.
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TRUE AND FALSE...
Congratulations to [url=x0br0ken0x.tblog.com]x0br0ken0x[/url] , she wins this True/False. Shes on a roll.
1. A pair of hoaxsters once led hundreds of gullible New Yorkers into participating in a scheme to saw Manhattan Island in half.
2. Being an only child (or an only son) automatically exempts you from military service.
3. A few years after a couple of kids used a made-up name to sign up for a free yearly ice cream cone, they received a draft registration notice for their non-existent friend.
4. Deep in the heart of Australia, the self-proclaimed Prince Leonard of Hutt River rules over his self-proclaimed principality.
5. The Texas legislature once passed a resolution honoring the Boston Strangler.
6. Nike denied a customer's request to have his shoes personalized with the word 'sweatshop.'
I feel ALIVE
05.14.04 (1:35 pm) [edit]so, its been a little more than a week since i out the bottle down and it feels great! no classes needed, no thearpy...nothing. i am quite happy that i decided to stop drinking, i have so much more energy, i feel so revitalized. next on my list is to quit smoking. i've been trying to, but with very little success. one thing i'm addicted to and the other i just used to love...much easier to quit the loved than the monkey. funny, seems we all have SOMETHING on our back, weighing us down and keeping us from achieving our goals. whether it be addiction or something else...like depression, hate, jealousy, or any other counter-productive emotion.
for me its smoking.
back when i was in highschool, i wasn't smoking...much, anyway. i would have a cigarette a day...maybe! i was involved in rugby, band, soccer, theatre, track, and basketball. i was on top of my game, very much in shape and always kept busy. then, in a few years of college and working in a warehouse, i started up smoknig about 2 packs a day. when i was out looking for work after college, i started smoking about 3 packs a day. i smoked because i needed something else to do, i was stressed and steadily growing lazy. found a job, settled in, and continue to smoke, but only about 7 cigs a day or so. i don't have as much energy as i used to and am not interested in the same things...mostly all because i smoke. i smoke when i'm lazy and bored...i smoke when i'm stressed and when i'm depressed...i smoke...its my crutch. however, now i am realizing that i would like to start doing all the things i used to enjoy so much. i'd like to take up guitar and maybe get my voice back...i could sing when i didn't smoke. maybe start jogging and exercising a lot more. i just want to get back in shape and live the life i used to - a healthy one.
lifes better without the extra weight.
True and False
05.13.04 (4:20 pm) [edit]Woohoo, I feel much better about things now. Next step, stop typing with capital letters.
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Congratulations to x0br0ken0x!!! She wins this true and false....
1. Jed Babbin said that "going to war without France is like going deer hunting without an accordion." - T
2. Al Gore claimed that he "invented the Internet. - F"
3. Bill Ripken's 1989 Fleer baseball card includes a hidden obscenity. - T
4. Golfer is poisoned by chewing on his tee. - T
5. Attorney General Janet Reno defined a cultist as someone "who has a strong belief in the Bible and the Second Coming of Christ . . ." - F
Update on petition entry.
05.13.04 (3:53 pm) [edit]The reason I posted a petition is simple: rights need to be protected. I know that some of you viewed this as censorship, but just as I spoke of in an earlier post (Freedom of Speech and the Right to Use It) there are lines that need to be drawn. Freedom of speech is no longer a right when it is abused to the extent that jesusprincess was using it.
I would like to thank Rocky for removing her racist garbage from tBlog. I am an advocate for all personal rights and freedoms, but they can be taken WAY too far if taken out of context and proportion. Thanks again, Rocky for cleaning up tBlog.
At it again...
05.13.04 (2:50 pm) [edit]Well, I'm not really in as playful of mood as I would like due to the nature of some of the blogs I have seen recently. You probably already know about a major one that I think needs to be put off (read below.) Anyway, today's random stuff might have a more serious side to it...but it will still be fun, I promise. Don't let the world get you down.
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"We hate some persons because we do not know them; and we will not know them because we hate them." -Charles Caleb Colton
"If you hate a person, you hate something in him that is part of yourself. What isn't part of ourselves doesn't disturb us." - Hermann Hesse
"The greatest friend of Truth is time, her greatest enemy is Prejudice, and her constant companion Humility." -
Charles Caleb Colton
"If we were to wake up some morning and find that everyone was the same race, creed and color, we would find some other cause for prejudice by noon." - George Aiken
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On January 28, 1962, Johanne Rellede of Zimbabwe was stung by bees 2,443 times. He survived.
The final resting place for Dr. Eugene Shoemaker is the Moon. The famed U.S. Geological Survey astronomer had trained the Apollo mission astronauts about craters, but never made it into space. Dr. Shoemaker had wanted to be an astronaut but was rejected because of a medical problem. His ashes were placed on board the Lunar Prospector spacecraft before it was launched on January 6, 1998. NASA crashed the probe into a crater on the moon on July 31, 1999, in an attempt to learn if there is water on the Moon.
The Danes in WW2 saved 7,200 Jewish people (out of 7800 total Jewish in Denmark) and 700 others from the Nazi's by shipping them across the river to Sweden.
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Question to answer. No true and false today, sorry. Unless of course I get a lot of people commenting and demanding it (hint hint). Anyway, please answer this question...however you would like...I'm curious.
In the following question(s) I am referring to "good" and "evil" as being on the inside and how it affects the outside.
What is the difference between "good" and "evil?" What are some examples of "good" and "evil" happening in the world right now?
Free Speech and the Right to Use It
05.13.04 (10:51 am) [edit]One of our nations (USA) most treaured rights is the right to speak freely and to express yourself however you see fit. However, when are rights like this taken too far? When is the practice of this right no longer just expression and opinion? When one intends to either a) harm another or b) to disgrace the belief's of another.
Now, I am a major believer in all the personal rights and freedoms that we have in America, but I draw the line when American principles are practiced immorally. This is not something that has just begun, it is something that has been going on since the beginning. Opinions vary, beliefs vary...morality should be common sense...I guess common sense has been given up on due to changes in tradition.
I don't want anyones rights to be taken away, I'm not looking to start a heated debate on the issue. All I am saying is that I want people to consider what they are saying and doing to others as they exercise their rights. Remember, even if you do hate someone, you do not need to act on it. Everyone in the world should be able to live they way they'd like to, regardless of anything. I know that I am hoping for a lot, but it starts with the way we act towards our fellow man. We need not disrupt anothers life just because we feel differently about it, just let them live how they want to. In the eyes of the hater, everyone is wrong. Thats no way to live. But, hey, as long as you believe they are wrong they will get whats coming to them...in your eyes...just don't speed the process up.
The use of your rights is up to you, you are free to express yourself however you'd like. Just please remember to consider the way you practice, try not to "preach."
PETITION
05.12.04 (5:24 pm) [edit]Please comment/sign this petition to BAN jesusprincess. why? beacuse of shit like this comment she left on wannabe's blog.......
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i have to let you know you suck as a person i can not beleive you have not yet found out the truth about my savior. he now hates you for you are not claiming him as lord. you no longer have anny chance to make it up the stairs to see him you will have to go down stairs anmd burn in hell forever more. you may think i kid you but i do not. i hear this music in the background and now know you are of the devil for it is bad music and brings no glory to my savior. it is people like you that bring a bad name to what christians used to be and are now i bet you have no friends and everyone will always hate you cuz you say jesus is a fake. i bet you are a fucking jew that is why i hate you if you are a jew or thinking about it you must know they hate you to for they are all fake ass bitches. you you are a bad person for being a jew i hope your not a jew bitch.
Stanley Kubrick
05.12.04 (3:57 pm) [edit]My Favorite Director!!
Filmography:
AI (2002 or 03?) Half of the film. Written by Stanely Kubrick and Spielberg stepped in after Kubrick died.
Eyes Wide Shut (1999)
Full Metal Jacket (1987)
Shining, The (1980)
Barry Lyndon (1975)
Clockwork Orange, A (1971)
2001: A Space Odyssey (1968)
Dr. Strangelove or: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb (1964)
Lolita (1962)
Spartacus (1960)
Paths of Glory (1957)
Killing, The (1956)
Killer's Kiss (1955)
Seafarers, The (1953)
Fear and Desire (1953)
Flying Padre (1951)
Day of the Fight (1951)
You should really consider seeing these movies. They are AMAZING!!!
Tomorrow I will be posting a small biography on him and a few reviews. Also, I will be posting why (from a directors stand-point) he is such an astounding director. Stay tuned.
zoobah zobbah wooha zoom
05.12.04 (2:19 pm) [edit]with all the hatred
all the fear
i shouldn't have stopped
drinking beer...
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"We can be sure that the greatest hope for maintaining equilibrium in the face of any situation rests within ourselves." - Francis J. Braceland
"But the body is deeper than the soul and its secrets inscrutable." - E. M. Forster
"The freethinking of one age is the common sense of the next." - Matthew Arnold
"Get the facts, or the facts will get you. And when you get them, get them right, or they will get you wrong." - Dr. Thomas Fuller
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In Taxi Driver Robert De Niro ad-libbed the famous "Are you talkin' to me?" line - it is not in the original screenplay.
In the film Forrest Gump, during a sequence set around 1970, someone is shown reading a copy of USA Today. The newspaper wasn't created until 1982.
When Schindler's List was first broadcast on American TV, in 1997, it was shown without commercial breaks, making it the longest uninterrupted broadcast since coverage of President Kennedy's assassination.
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TRUE AND FALSE
CONGRATS TO KRAZEDONE!!! SHE WINS TODAY'S TRUE AND FALSE. CHECK BACK TOMORROW FOR SOME [u]REAL[/u] BRAIN BOGGLERS....
1. Austria is home to a town called Fucking. - T
2. The drug clomipramine can cause orgasms in yawning patients. - T
3. NASA shuttle astronauts conducted sex experiments in space. - T
4. Indiscreet gal reveals in e-mail that her lover's sperm is "yum." - F
interesting...very interesting...
05.12.04 (1:00 pm) [edit]ok, most people here should already know that i am a slight "advocate" for marijuana. yes, its true...hate it or love it...or just don't care. i'm going to post an experience taken from the [url=http://www.erowid.org]Erowid Vaults[/url] that i found pretty interesting.
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Tonight I had an experience which was so anomalous as to provoke mention. To be sure, a water pipe had been passed around before I arrived home. But before you dismiss it on the basis of my intoxication, consider that this still begs the question of where *any* experience comes from. We are made of experiences, and this is one of them.
To be precise, I had two bong hits at a friend's house. I was on my way home anyway, and though I don't enjoy smoking in public, there seemed no harm in this case. 'I'll just have a little,' I thought. Well, it soon became clear that I was very stoned indeed, so I took my leave and headed home. Thereafter I was treated to the most spectacular display of neurochemistry I have ever witnessed.
I was seated, cross-legged, on my couch. Falling easily into a state of deep relaxation, I became tightly focused on the present, on the origin of thought. I thought of the Buddha, of the meaning of 'infinite wisdom'. There was jazz playing downstairs at the cafe below. Filtering through the floorboards, it became muffled, and distorted. I stared ahead, unmoving. My mind continued to focus. The pitch of the ambient noise began to rise, blending into a hum which sounded like an engine starting up within me.
Whether I saw what was coming or not, I cannot recall. But I think it was a _gradual_ thing. Let's say it was a *fractal* thing, the most gradual of all! That is to say, there was a progression, but it did seem to happen rather quickly, the more I realized what was going on.
Most people don't ask for Enlightenment, and many others never get it. Maybe someday I'll understand. But this experience made a mark on me, however small and briefly lingering. I have had ecstasies of a simliar nature, but in degree so much less than this, in _awareness_ so much less!
For a single instant, one trilling and triumphant moment, I pierced what Blake might have called 'the Mundane Shell.' I saw shapes swimming in a field of neon bands, surging with the colors of Africa. I saw the world before my eyes through the alchemical crystal, revealed, at once, in its simultaneous compelxity and simplicity. My third eye must have blinked. But only a glimpse -- and then, a ripple, a slackening of intensity, and the moment was lost.
But now, my fancy played with reflections of the infinite. Billowing fractals loomed up, flowing towards the s5n which lit the sea floor. They were like whales, ponderous and silent, speaking their own strange language, watching. In slow steps threafter my concentration dissipated. Soon I sat forward, exhausted. I wondered what had just happened to me.
Yet there was so much more, now forgotten! In the period that followed there seemed to be a cycling of stimulation, so that now I was privy to visions of transcendant beauty and magnitude, then sequeing into a linguistic phase, and then a musical one, then a 'waking' moment, and back again. (I cannot recall the actual order.) I remember lying on my bed in darkness, and seeing myself broken and surrendered on an alien world, beneath a sweep of galactic vastness. Planets, huge and crowding, peeked from dusty nebulae, and a sort of twisting neon grid seemed to stretch across the immensity above. Then came the chanting: Sanskrit poetry in rhythmic cadence, rhyming syllables of beauty and power. This too gave way, and I heard poetry, English poetry! A voice in my head, reciting poetry as I listened in joy, and tried in vain to remember...
This was the most intense visionary experience I have ever had. And all from a humble green vegetable.
i wish i were an oscar meyer weiner
05.12.04 (11:50 am) [edit]wait, no i don't. why the hell would i wish something like that? i dunno, maybe its just childhood hiding under my bed...waiting for the perfect moment to strike...and when it does...i don't know, something horrific will happen i am sure.
thats funny, how childhood will kind of just come back one step at a time. things we think we forgot suddenly pop out of nowhere, taking hold of us...making us smile. sometimes i wish growing up never happened, sometimes i am glad it did. i mean, we can't stay children our entire lives, we have responcibilities (sp) and other things of the like. it is, however, important to stay young on the inside. some homeless dude i talked to a long time ago while waiting for my brother to pick me up at the train station said: once you forget about the child inside, all else stops and slowly fades away. the first thing i thought was how this dude was all fucked up on some drug and had lost his mind. the next thing i thought was how very true it was.
when you forget how to have fun, when you forget how to smile...you grow beyond your years. not wiser, not stronger...weaker and fragile. the freedom you once gave yourself to experience life has become like a prison, barring you from the joys of life.
i have not forgotten the child inside of me, i've still got a long ways to go before i need to start watching out for that. i just think its important to keep your "wild" side...not so much a party animal, but someone who knows how to have a good time and is not afraid to. i've seen people fall prey to themselves in this way and it tears me up inside. when someone becomes so settled in that they forget about the most important things in life. stay young, be yourself, enjoy life, and act accordingly. accordingly? i don't know, just don't be rash. lol.
don't you wish you were an oscar meyer weiner? after all, i'm a toys r us kid.
True or False?
05.11.04 (4:50 pm) [edit]Congratulations to [url=http://x0br0ken0x.tblog.com]x0br0ken0x[/url] for answering them all correctly...even if it did take a few tries for the process of elimination! YAY!
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1. The Disney film Song of the South has never been released on home video in the USA. - T
2. Elvis Presley's backup singers walked out on a concert after he made a crack that their breath "smelled like catfish." - T
3. The state of Missouri named a stretch of highway adopted by the Ku Klux Klan the "Rosa Parks Highway." - T
4. The name Aspirin was derived from the terms 'acetylsalicylic acid' and 'spiraea ulmaria.' - T
5. The energy drink Red Bull contains a dangerous stimulant linked to the formation of brain tumors. - F
6. Wax from the styrofoam containers of instant noodles can build up in one's system to fatal levels. - F
stay tuned for more true and false.........its daily.....
are u on crack?
05.11.04 (3:29 pm) [edit]i think i might be, how do you tell?
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"Marriage is the union of disparate elements. Male and female. Yin and yang. Proton and electron. What are we talking about here? Nothing less than the very tension that binds the universe. You see, when we look at marriage, people, we're are looking at creation itself. "I am the sky," says the Hindu bridegroom to the bride. "You are the earth. We are sky and earth united.... You are my husband. You are my wife. My feet shall run because of you. My feet shall dance because of you. My heart shall beat because of you. My eyes see because of you. My mind thinks because of you and I shall love because of you." - Diane Frolov and Andrew Schneider
"Dreams are postcards from our subconscious, inner self to outer self, right brain trying to cross that moat to the left. Too often they come back unread: "return to sender, addressee unknown." That's a shame because it's a whole other world out there--or in here depending on your point of view." - Dennis Koenig and Jordan Budde
"He felt that his whole life was some kind of dream and he sometimes wondered whose it was and whether they were enjoying it." - Douglas Adams
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Inflamation of the bladder can be caused by nylon underwear!
It only takes 7 pounds of pressure to rip your ear off.
A rope made from 1000 human hairs could lift a well built man.
Like fingerprints, everyone's tongue print is different.
It has been said that in one year the average person breathes in two grams of solid pollution, eats twelve pounds of food additives, their own body weight in sugar and a gallon of pesticides!
When you sneeze, your mucus comes out of your mouth at approximately 100 mph.
Half of all sexually active women in Britain are infected with the HPV virus.
Mosquito repellents don't repel. They hide you. The spray blocks the mosquito's sensors so they don't know you're there.
A World Transformed
05.11.04 (1:29 pm) [edit]In 1998, former President George Bush and Brent Scowcroft, National Security Advisor during the Bush administration, collaborated on the book A World Transformed, a political history covering significant world events which occurred during the first three years of Bush's presidency (1989-1991): the collapse of the Soviet empire, the unification of Germany, Tiananmen Square, and the Gulf War.
In Chapter 19, which discusses the aftermath of the 1991 Gulf War (also known as "Desert Storm," the military operation to liberate Kuwait from occupation by invading Iraqi forces), they wrote:
Trying to eliminate Saddam, extending the ground war into an occupation of Iraq, would have violated our guideline about not changing objectives in midstream, engaging in "mission creep," and would have incurred incalculable human and political costs. Apprehending him was probably impossible. We had been unable to find Noriega in Panama, which we knew intimately. We would have been forced to occupy Baghdad and, in effect, rule Iraq. The coalition would instantly have collapsed, the Arabs deserting it in anger and other allies pulling out as well. Under the circumstances, there was no viable "exit strategy" we could see, violating another of our principles. Furthermore, we had been self-consciously trying to set a pattern for handling aggression in the post-Cold War world. Going in and occupying Iraq, thus unilaterally exceeding the United Nations' mandate, would have destroyed the precedent of international response to aggression that we hoped to establish. Had we gone the invasion route, the United States could conceivably still be an occupying power in a bitterly hostile land. It would have been a dramatically different — and perhaps barren — outcome.
Politics and Religion
05.11.04 (12:20 pm) [edit]Well, since Operation "Iraqi Freedom" started, I have realized that many people are FINALLY beginning to understand what "politically active" means. I am happy to see that more people are registering to vote because they are finally able to understand that they CAN make a difference...no matter how small, its still pretty big.
On September 11, 2001 our world changed...drastically. Americans were led in fear to go after a man they had never seen. The way to go about this, however, was the WRONG way. Our president decided that it would be best to just go ahead and take over a couple of countries...under false pretences. Who cared though, seemed like the best thing to do at the time.
As time passed, people became more aware that America did the wrong thing. This is now understood around the world and practiced as anti-American sentiment. I have no problem with this...except that as an American, I must take my steps carefully. Wherever in this world that I chose to go, I must always have my head turned to see behind me.
There are people around the world that call this a holy war/Jihad, but thats not exactly what it is. To some extent, I can agree...but the fact of the matter is - it is not. It is an economic war. Oil. Thats what America is after so that the Empire can grow stronger and last longer. However, every great Empire falls.
I was reading a blog I enjoy a lot ([url=http://redtigress.tblog.com]RedTigress[/url] ) and she was asking about religion...organized religion. I have never been one to practice it or even like it, but now I am beginning to see that it is important...just not for me. With people running around like chickens with their heads cut-off, yelling and screaming about "JIHAD!" and "THE END OF THE WORLD!" it has become increasingly apparent that these are some VERY strong bonds and should be recognized. Right now, for some, religion is a great way to deal with whats going on in the world. People are praying that god will save us, but that is NOT the way to go. At least practice your political beliefs as well. Get out there and VOTE.
I have never considered myself a good writer when it comes to matters of politics and religion, but I do have opinions that I feel I need to express. I think that this may be our last chance to survive as a people. We need to wake up and smell the blood. Looking back through the eyes of history has taught me that it truly does repeat itself. Just like Vietnam, we have underestimated the enemy and found ourselves in a predicament thats going to last a few more years...a few more lives.
I don't know, I just needed to get something out?
An Islamic militant website has shown a video purporting to show the beheading of an American in Ira
05.11.04 (11:30 am) [edit]GODDAMN IT! FROM BBC.....
The video - the contents of which could not be verified - showed five men in headscarves and ski masks cutting off the man's head with a knife.
Moments earlier, the victim said he was an American from Philadelphia.
The group, thought to be linked to al-Qaeda, said it was carrying out the execution in retaliation for the abuse of Iraqi prisoners by US soldiers.
The poor-quality tape - shown on the Muntada al-Ansar site - began with the victim, bound and wearing an orange jumpsuit, sitting on the floor with five masked men behind him.
The victim identified himself as Nick Berg, a US contractor whose body was found near a highway overpass in Baghdad on Saturday.
One of the masked men read out a statement, saying they had offered to exchange the man for inmates of Abu Ghraib prison but the coalition authorities refused.
They then pulled the man to the side and put a knife to his neck.
The man screamed as he was executed.
His killers shouted "Allah is great" before holding what appeared to be a head up to the camera.
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this is the worst war since vietnam...it will only get worse.
stupid quizzes
05.10.04 (6:17 pm) [edit]you can tell i'm bored.
what's your cowboy bebop theme song?
A.N.S.W.E.R. Files Freedom of Information Act Request with the Department of Defense and the CIA for
05.10.04 (5:54 pm) [edit]PRESS RELEASE
May 10, 2004
A.N.S.W.E.R. Files Freedom of Information Act Request with the Department of Defense and the CIA for the Release of the Withheld Evidence of Abuse of Prisoners Held in Iraq, Afghanistan and Guantanamo
The antiwar coalition A.N.S.W.E.R. today filed requests under the Freedom of Information Act (FOIA) with the Department of Defense and the Central Intelligence Agency seeking the release of photographs, video and other information pertaining to conditions of detention and interrogation by U.S. forces in Iraq, Afghanistan and Guantanamo. The request was filed by attorneys Mara Verheyden-Hilliard and Carl Messineo, of the Partnership for Civil Justice.
"We filed this request on behalf of the A.N.S.W.E.R. Coalition because the government has a legal obligation not to conceal or cover-up criminal action that it has undertaken. The people of the United States have the right to learn the truth about U.S. military operations and the barbaric and criminal treatment of detainees in Iraq and elsewhere," stated Mara Verheyden-Hilliard. "The full release of the information will, we believe, reveal that torture and humiliation of prisoners is not aberrational but rather is an institutionalized mechanism of occupation and conquest."
A.N.S.W.E.R. steering committee member Elias Rashmawi of Free Palestine Alliance, stated, "For many people in the United States the recent disclosures of the murder and torture of Arab and Muslim prisoners held in U.S. detention constitutes a shocking and startling revelation. For the Arab people, however, we recognize in these horrible photos the same horrendous tactics that are routinely employed by the Israeli Defense Forces against Palestinian and other Arab prisoners. These tactics are the tools of occupation, now being exported to Iraq, Afghanistan and Guantanamo.
"These acts are an indication of the sadistic and collective intent to fully dehumanize a people. These were not acts of an interrogation of an occupying army for the purpose of obtaining forced confessions, itself a horrifying crime; these are a pervasive assault against a people in their entirety, their values and their being, in the most offensive and brutal manner. This is what occupation looks like. We are certain that as these practices are exposed to the people in the U.S. they will reject the U.S. government's attempts to carry out this brutality in their names."
The A.N.S.W.E.R. Coalition (Act Now to Stop War & End Racism) is preparing to mobilize thousands of people to march from the White House to the Pentagon on June 5, 2004. There will be coordinated demonstrations on June 5 in San Francisco, Los Angeles and other cities.
"We have filed a FOIA request today because it is obvious that the Bush Administration, the Pentagon and the CIA have conducted a massive cover-up over many months to prevent the people of the world from learning the truth about their operations," according to Brian Becker of A.N.S.W.E.R. "This criminal war and occupation must end. As during the Vietnam War, the people are continuing to build the anti-war movement until all foreign troops are removed from Iraq. We are standing in opposition to all colonial occupation and intervention from Haiti to Palestine to Korea, the Philippines, Cuba, Zimbabwe, Venezuela and elsewhere. In each and every instance the occupiers have resorted to murder and torture in their pursuit of conquest and empire."
drum and bass history
05.10.04 (4:36 pm) [edit]its long, but good.
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Drum and bass (drum n bass, DnB) is an electronic music style. Drum and bass, originally an offshoot of the United Kingdom breakbeat hardcore and rave scene, came into existence when people mixed reggae basslines with sped-up hip hop breakbeats and influences from techno. Pioneers such as raggamuffin DJ General Levy and other DJs quickly became the stars of Drum and bass, then still called jungle. Producers such as Goldie and 4 Hero transformed the current art and turned drum and bass in more instrumental direction, spawning sub-genres like techstep and moving the genre closer to techno. Some of the more popular and defining artists include Shy FX, Ed Rush & Optical, LTJ Bukem, Goldie, and Roni Size. --http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/...
Jungle
Based almost entirely in England, Drum'n'Bass (then called 'jungle') emerged in the early '90s. It is one of the most rhythmically complex of all forms of dance music, relying on extremely fast polyrhythms and breakbeats. Usually, it's entirely instrumental — consisting of nothing but fast drum machines and deep bass.
As its name implies, jungle does have more overt reggae, dub, and R&B influences than most hardcore — and that is why some critics claimed that the music was the sound of black techno musicians and DJs reclaiming it from the white musicians and DJs who dominated the hardcore scene. Nevertheless, jungle never slows down to develop a groove — it just speeds along. Like most dance music genres, jungle is primarily a 'twelve inch' genre designed for a small, dedicated audience, although the crossover success of Goldie and his 1995 debut Timeless suggested a broader appeal.
Dozens of respected artists started fusing breakbeats with influences lifted from jazz, film music, ambient, and trip-hop. -- allmusic.com
Carl Craig
Take Innerzone Orchestra's percussive masterpiece "Bug In The Bassbin" for example. In 1995 as drum'n'bass hit the musical headlines, even Goldie was declaring that "Bug..." was a seminal influence on the music's development.
A History
What is now a complex mixture of influences and genres began from humble roots in the UK. Though many debate the original drum & bass record, it was a combination of Lenny De Ice's "We are ie" and the late 1989 Perfecto release 'Baz De Conga' which pioneered the movement. The cut was an amalgamation of ideas and sounds, combining the sax drop from "Monkey Say, Monkey Do" with Steel City bleeps and a gospel vocal lift. What producer Steve Bicknell brought to the cut however was attitude - the whole mix powered by a tumbling sub roll, clattering breakbeats and an unrelenting synth strike.
Wherever people sought their influence, what followed was a snowballing of interest within this new form of UK sourced dance music. London at the time was a flurry of activity as labels, shops and clubs grew, this fire fuelled by an ever expanding pirate movement. Although the formation of labels such as Mendoza and Reinforced in the spring of 1990 gave direction, as late as the closing stages of 1991 the music was being played back to back with other forms of dance music.
This wasn't to last however, as the months rolled on the tempo spiralled and the music moved further and further from its house roots, each producer developing a style of their own.
The music made a distinct split during 1992. The early months of the year saw the formation of Moving Shadow, who released Earth Leakage Trip's "Psychotronic EP" to critical acclaim, a breath of fresh air in the more dancefloor orientated releases of Sub Base, Ibiza and Sound Of The Underground, who were continuing on the rhythm based club cuts.
Nebula II's "Flatliners", typified the darkside sound of 92/93, menacing and unforgiving the sounds borrowed from Belgium techno wreaked havoc to the groove. Leeroy Small's Leicester based Formation at the forefront of this digression through the Dark & Moody series, the tempo again the deciding factor as it creept from the lower regions of 140 beats per minute all the way through to 170.
Two cuts turned around a darkside which had become somewhat overburdened with a cartoon horror film dynamic. Goldie's "Terminator" and a little known white stamped only as "Tic Tac Toe", the white bringing a new maturity to the sound, while Goldie brought the technical mechanics. His work at Reinforced, in addition to his legendary personality and enthusiasm for the music led to him becoming one of the first producers to sign for a major.
From this point the music continued to splinter, 1993 saw LTJ Bukem establish Good Looking Records. Although most quote "Music" as pioneer of d&b's more musical form, it was his earlier work "Demon's Theme" which laid out the framework for what later became known as ambient or intelligent drum & bass. What Bukem in fact pioneered was in fact neither ambient nor intelligent, moreover a more structured approach to the d&b production, which concentrated less on the percussives and more around the atmospheres of the track.
This increasing maturity became more evident through the work of Rupert Parkes, although 1994 had brought a number of releases for both Good Looking and Ipswich's Certificate 18 label it was on the establishment of his own Photek label, that his tracks truly began to charter new territory - his records unlike anything before or since - sub-orbital atmospherics caught in a mesh of beats and occasional bass pulses.
1994 also saw the advent of the drum & bass longplayer by way of the groundbreaking "Parallel Universe" from 4 Hero, a double album of pure abstract, bringing vocals and the first echoes of jazz to drum & bass. Marc Mac & Dego's technical prowess leaving most breathless - seventy minutes bringing more new breaks than had been used in the music within the last six months in addition to a number of new techniques one of which, filtering, has made an indelible impression on the way beat programming has been carried out since. This discovery and integration of jazz became a turning point for the music, these elements cropping up within a number of releases, perhaps most notably in Blame & Justice's "Icons" project released on Justice's own "Modern Urban Jazz" label as well as showing its head through D*Notes seminal "Criminal Justice" longplayer.
Bristol made an indelible impression both through a multitude of labels, Full Cycle stable and Brian G's London based V imprint leading the charge - releasing a wealth of tracks, responsible for bringing through artists such as Size, Krust, Die, Flynn & Flora and Bill Riley - who integrated jazz, dub and smokey trip hop elements into a whole new form.
1995 brought Techstep took its name from a compilation LP release by East Londons Emotif Recordings, though is widely hailed as the product of DJ Trace who, in conjunction with Nico from the No U Turn label and Grooverider's Prototype brought a new sound to the long-forgetton darkside. Releases such as Blame's "Planet Neptune" and Source Direct's "Snake Style", though based more within the technological side of the movement, influenced techstep's direction and sound - which continues to launch careers two years on.
1997 sees a number of developments in d&b's continuing expansion. The second wave of artists longplayers for majors are starting to appear - albums from 4 Hero, DJ Krust, Adam F, Goldie, Source Direct and Dillinjah are expected before the year is out, while many already released (Photek's "Modus Operandi" and "New Forms" from Full Cycle collective Reprazent) are receiving critical acclaim. In addition to this the work of labels such as Good Looking and James Lavelle's Mo' Wax are working at bringing d&b artists to instrumental hip hop and vice versa, while tours of the US and Japan by most major dj's in addition to clubs and pirates surfacing in most of the UK's towns and cities spread the word.
-- originally written in 1997 by VN's Kingsley Marshall
Speedgarage
The Armand Van Helden remix of CJ Bolland's "Sugar is Sweeter" defined the whole [speed garage] sound with that huge breakdown and massive bass-line. He was the first one to really come up with any sort of formula for the music.
Armand, "For me when I first started to make speedgarage, I didn't term it as speedgarage. I'd been into drum and bass for years. The scenario was, I'm not gonna try and make speed garage , I'm gonna take it and put it with house and see what happens. That's all it is, that's the birth of Speedgarage."
One of these people doing it well is New Jersey based producer Todd Edwards. Van Helden cites Edwards as the best of the "other side" of Speedgarage, that of tight beats with an underlying garage influence. This style is most evident on Edwards' single "Dancing for Heaven". [...]
A History
BREAKBEAT Glory - What's The Story? Is there a year zero with clearly mapped co-ordinates for the beginning of jungle? When did we first fall in love with subsonic bass, breakbeats and digital creation? You can trace the raw concepts back to Meat Beat Manifesto's 'Radio Babylon' or DJ Kool Herc's pre-hip hop invention of breakbeats. Perhaps you prefer to root the whole thing in 'Amen Brother' by The Winstons or 'Think' by Lyn Collins - the two tracks that spawned drum n' basses favourite drum breaks. You can wait until after acid house then travel through the drug/technology interface into acid, rave and the well documented waves of hardcore, artcore, Bukem, techstep and darkcore again. Beyond this there is no clear history, just endless rogue production units swapping names, sounds and identities like militia working black ops both in and out of ever-evolving micro-genres.
Some say Fabio and Grooverider are the story of drum n' bass yet current darkstar Ed Rush was turned onto the scene after checking Spiral Tribe play hardcore while the derided ragga-units worked inside a loop of producers cutting tunes for the pirates where new sound spread across the airwaves. At the moment ideas move simultaneously underground and overground, fresh sonics coming off leading DJs' dubplates, baby label headz signing to majors, new crews appearing all over Europe and US or the efforts of Bowie and Everything But The Girl to communicate/emasculate drum n' bass for the global mainstream.
Drum n' bass is control versus chaos: hi-fi-sci-fi beat programmes that expand and contract, roll and squeeze, rinse out and explode to generate physical abandon on the floors. Some people reckon Fabio, Groove, Doc Scott and Goldie (Cleveland Watkiss introduced him with "the Goldicus has landed" on the mic at a recent Metalheadz) control drum n' bass but no one posse can hold onto the sound for long. Teddy Riley's started cutting breaks, James Lavelle and Coldcut's Ninja Tune reintegrate the sound into old skool/nu skool breakz culture while everyone from the acid jazz, ambient and gabber crews is claiming and making a version of drum n' bass for themselves. Is drum n' bass the music of the aftermath or just the music of now? Years after rave's chemical countdown pushed new sounds into being drum n' bass functions both in the comedown for older soldiers while all over the planet fresh kids take it as their sound of choice. Drum n' bass is old and new, drugged and clean, veteran and fresh, black and white, pop and underground, ambient and hardcore, ever-expanding, changing, mutating, rolling and moving. Destination unknown. - author unknown
A History
History of Jungle / Drum & Bass - Unknown author 1998
Breakbeat was an underground music which had originally come in from the USA in the late 1970s. Frankie Bones, at his early DJ-ing stage had created breakbeat irregular music, whereby he had overlapped two same records on turn-table decks at slightly different speeds and slightly delayed. This would create asynchronous beat, which would drive the crowd crazy. His track named "Bones Breaks" was a pioneer if not discovererof breakbeat which has remained strictly underground since. In the late 80s, house scene erupted in UK, especially in London. As house scene had progressed, the ecstasy rave culture had emerged from the youth, suppressing the football hooliganism. House from one side and breakbeat from the other side had created a combination, which later led to production of what was called jungle and what is now called drum & bass.
It was around 1990, when jungle started emerging from the general dance scene. Kickin' and Shut up & Dance record labels started fusing breakbeat, house, hip-hop, reggae, techno and most importantly dub to produce what they called Jungle. In fact the name originates from one of the experimental clubs in London, called "Jungle" where the first fusion experiments were played. The term "jungle", though, had remained in the underground until 1993.
DJ Hype creates breakbeat feeling by mixing house and hip hop at 45 rpm on Phantasy FM. Later co-produces some of the first jungle tracks under the name The Scientist, with the tracks like "Excorcist" and "The Bee". Telepathy - one of the first hardcore jungle clubs kick starts in November. Mickey Finn creates the track Bionic Man, which uses the same idea as the Excorcist. 1992 was the year when the hardcore music was peaking.
Jungle was often confused with hardcore, which was quite similar at the time, but was directed more towards 4/4 base beat, rather than looped asynchronous rhythm. Jungle had just made its way to a larger audience, while hardcore was a total novice to the dance scene. Both jungle and hardcore were played at the same raves and sometimes the artists didn't even know whether the track they made was jungle or hardcore. Both of the styles were co-existing under one roof and so there was no separate jungle scene.
Johnny Jungle (today known as Pascal) had released a hit called "Johnny" which was a beginning of the new era. Johnny L created "Hurt You So" on XL recordgins, which highlighted the breaks out of the hardcore formula. 4Hero, LTJ Bukem, Grooverider, DJ Hype and other future jungle producers started heading in the new breaks direction. The true jungle was ahead.
1993 was the end of confusion. Hardcore and the twin brother happy hardcore moved towards a more progressive rhythm, while Jungle remained on the breakbeat side. Though still reminiscent of 1992, artists such as Wax Doctor, headed the darker bassline sounds. At that point, jungle had finally gained its own identity - dedicated club venues such as Roast, Roller Express, Telepathy and Desire start operating on a weekly basis. Andy C comes up with the "Valley Of The Shadows" - the timeless jungle hit. Ed Rush throws the darkcore "Bloodclot Attack" while LTJ Bukem rolls out the ambient "Music". It was, not to understate, Moving Shadow's year. Artists such as Omni Trio stormed the jungle scene with the "Renegade Snares" and Foul Play remixed it even better, leaving it in our minds forever. As the producers moved away from hardcore towards breakbeat, their technical skills grew, which had relieved jungle of the ordinary mockery of the speeded up vocals.
1994 was the peak of Jungle. The clubs such as AWOL (A Way Of Life), Jungle Rush, Jungle Fever, Thunder And Joy, Roast and Thrust were spinning jungle on full. This year, jungle was most influenced by ragga basslines and rasta vocals. This was a revitalised year of jungle rave madness. Dream Team (Bizzy B. and DJ Pugwash) came up with the track "Yeah Man" which remained on the pirate stations for another 4 months. DJ Hype along with DJ Zinc and Pascal created an label called Ganja, which later became one of the major labels on the scene.
The number of jungle pirate stations had enormously increased. Kool FM pirate station was the main source of jungle refreshment to the crowd. Although raided more than 5 times, it still kept going strong. Jungle managed to conserve what rave had lost two years before. Krome and Mr. Time had made a classic, legendary track called "The Licence" with the sample of Papa-Levi & Saxon Sound - a track which made the crowd go hyper.
The jungle atmosphere remained fresh and happy. The phenomenon was purely London based and had no equivalent anywhere. Labels like Tearin Vinyl, Rugged Vinyl, Ganja Kru, Joker, Reinforced, Certificate 18, Photek Recordings, Prototype, Liftin Spirit and Ram were a refreshing source of jungle music. DJ Rap at her label, Proper Talent had created a symbolic ragga influenced track "Intelligent Woman" with vocals by Candy. DJ Hype rolls out "Tiger Style", while Dillinja brings a mellow track named "Sovereign Melody".
By that time, even Fantazia and Telstar had realised, that jungle was very popular, which led to production of the compilations called "Fantazia takes you into the Jungle" and "Jungle Mania" by Telstar. A mad junglistic rave named "Telepathy" provided the unforgettable experience for many. World Dance's main arena now becomes jungle oriented. At the end of the year, a daughter style started developing. Under the name "Drum & Bass" - representative of the Jungle's content, the style was directed at the new school technique to approach the same concept of music.
Among the creators, strongly stood the DJs such as LTJ Bukem, Fabio, Doc Scott, Grooverider, Photek and Dillinja, who had changed their direction towards a fresher sound and greater acoustic effects. At first, though, Drum & Bass remained along the same strands as jungle, which still makes people confuse both these days. It is easier to look as one being the continuation of the other, rather than worry which is which. As Drum & Bass slowly but steadily was heading its slightly different way, jungle kept rinsing out the underground culture.
1995 - Rolling tune is being invented. P-Funk's "P-Funk Era" is the tune to define the rolling future. Rude bwoy style overwhelmed the jungle scene: DJ Krust comes up with a deadly track 'Set Speed' along with 'Angels' - "When you can't see the angels no more, you're in trouble!"; Firefox rolls out 'Bonanza Kid' while Urban Shakedown brings "The Arsonist" with its ragga influenced vocals. Though rougher, the atmosphere remained similar to 1994.
1995 was also the year of commercialisation. Goldie had released 'Timeless', which sold 150,000 in UK, let alone worldwide sales. Goldie then concentrated on creating his own label called Metalheadz. Here the junglist DJ Dextrous reveals himself as J Majik. Goldie gathered the artists such as Doc Scott, Dillinja, Photek, Peshay and Lemon D, to push drum & bass. 4 Hero releases the remix of their legendary track "Mr Kirk's Nightmare". Towards the end of 1995, the jungle atmosphere started disappearing. It is generally thought, that the scene's decline was caused by the swing the leading artists made, in order to catch up with developing commercial mainstream. DJs generally wanted to take up their niches in the new commercial sphere, before it was too late. The concept of underground was somehow betrayed for money. Despite this changeover, jungle kept on going. At the beginning of 1996, clubs like AWOL and Roast were demised. Club DLB was one of the few left to keep feeding fuel into the jungle's fading fire.
1996 was also the year of drum 'n' bass style splitting. Grooverider's term "Hardstep" gains mainstream acceptance, which was a further re-fusion of jungle and hip-hop (what was earlier called the roller tune). The "step" was a rougher, stronger beat, and had more in common with 4/4 rhythm than breakbeat. Most people think that No U Turn should be credited for Techstep, which is in fact wrong. It was an album released on Emotif records (A daughter label of the now closed S.O.U.R) in 1995 entitled "Techsteppin'" that defined both the term and the music. The No-U-Turn posses fiddled with the "Terrorist" bassline (Ray Keith's 94 classic) to make it sound more acidic and analogue - the element that is most present in Drum & Bass today, and placed it over a tech-step 4/4 pumping technoid beat.
"Intelligent drum & bass" classified tracks, which had ambient/jazz licks on top. "Dark" or "Darkstep" drum & bass was pushed by Grooverider, where the name speaks for itself. "Experimental" drum & bass had never really caught up from the underground, and remained a sphere where drum & bass couldn't really be defined by any of the terms above, jungle was pushed to the back by drum & bass. Logical Progression takes it by storm nationwide, yet Good Looking is nearly at a point of bankrupcy. Adam F comes up with the legendary track "Circles", "Valley of the Shadows" known to most people as "31 seconds" by Origin Unknown gets re-released on Ram and becomes one of the years jungle anthems. The 96/97 New Year parties were somewhat reminiscent of 94 and 95 new years' eves, but have nearly lost the jungle atmosphere.
1997 - Drum & bass DJs are booked for house oriented clubs; Ministry of Sound has drum & bass sessions. What's going on? Roni Size forms a Reprazent campus, where DJ Die, DJ Suv, Krust and Roni Size come together. Roni size releases a track entitled "Share The Fall", immediately followed by Grooverider's dark remix.
Different styles of drum & bass are heading in their own directions. Roni Size's "Brown Paper Bag" becomes an anthem immediately after its release. There are many newcomers to the scene such as Boymerang. LTJ Bukem has teamed up with Blame to present Logical Progression 2. Techstep seems to be the ultimate style of the year, with Jonny L resurfacing from the past, and bringing the hardcore "Piper". DJ Krust's "Soul In Motion" is released after being 15 months on dubplate.
The jungle breaks (amens) as we know them had totally disappeared from most tunes, making it quite hard to find a tune odd one out. World Dance put on their "last" (as they said) rave at Lydd Airport. "Here is your last chance before another chapter in 'Rave History' comes to an end!" say their adverts posted around London. 5 Telepathy Raves and Last Innovation Ever is held at the Camden Palace on August 30th. Goldie's album, originally planned for the summer gets delayed. Goldie walks out on Rob Playford.
But in 1997 there were labels, that tried to overcome the "fashion" - Juice, Splash, Back 2 Basics and Second movement kept releasing the tracks that were hard and underground - MTS' "Hard Disk", New Concepts 14.98 and many other hard amen tracks including Dom & Rolands excellent work which was surprisingly overlooked.
1998 -End of style-splitting. The scene is back together, finally. Nothing is techstep, hardstep, intelligent etc. etc. it's all drum & bass. And, together with that, the amens are coming back: labels like True Playaz, Frontline, Juice, Splash, Timeless, Dread start putting out break tunes - Slow Down, the Real Vibes album and the never forgotten top tune Frozen Remix by Dom & Roland. The Labyrinth was nearly shut but then moved to the Pleasure Rooms in Tottenham, meaning it would hit it's 10th birthday and still provide the best line ups. DJ Ron makes the finest comeback with the Future Dubwise E.P. - unknown author, taken from globaldarkness
Books
The Rough Guide to Drum 'n' Bass - Peter Shapiro [1 book, Amazon US]
The Rough Guide to Drum 'n' Bass Music covers the breakbeat and its circulation through the world in genres such as Jungle, Hardcore Techno, Trip-Hop, and Big Beat. This pocket-sized but encyclopedic tome traces the innovators and apprentices, with hundreds of reviews and recommendations. Drum 'n' Bass is divided into two sections--one focusing on Jungle/Drum 'n' Bass/Hardcore and the other focusing on Trip-Hop and Big Beat--and comprises 200 entries organized in A-Z fashion. [...]
Broken Beats
Also called the West London sound, with names like IG Culture (aka New Sector Movements), Modaji, Phil Asher, Alex Attias, Dego, Domu, Modaji, Nubian Mindz, Seiji, Kaidi Thatam, Orin Walters
As Drum&Bass has been ailing for a few years, a new genre has emerged from UK's West London merging afro-beat with "broken" breakbeats, Soul Jazz with electronic sounds...
"Broken Beat to me, it 's a term I have never really got to grips with. I don't do "broken beat", my beats are quite fixed thank you!" -- Excerpt from Colin Lindo interview featured at Hyperdub
"That's something I've always tried to fight against, the notion of West London and 'broken beats' and such. I think that when people give us those sorts of labels they tend to make us look a bit parochial. It just makes us look like we're a clique and we're not really about that." -- Excerpt from Modaji interview featured at Dotmusic
Black Cadillacs
05.10.04 (4:22 pm) [edit]THIS IS MY FAVORITE SONG AT THE MOMENT. THOUGHT I WOULD SHARE SINCE YOU ALL NEED TO LISTEN TO THIS BAND. IF YOU DONT LISTEN TO THIS BAND, YOU WILL NEVER KNOW THE MEANING OF INNOVATION. OK.
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BLACK CADILLACS
BY: MODEST MOUSE
And it's true we named our children
after towns that we've never been to.
And it's true that the clouds just hung around
like black Cadillacs outside a funeral.
And we were done, done, done
with all the fuck, fuck, fuckin' around.
You were so true to yourself.
You were true to no one else.
Well I should put you in the ground.
I've got the time, I got the hours,
I got the days, I got the weeks.
I could say to myself
I've got the words but I can't speak.
Well I was done, done, done
with all the circ, circ, circlin' round.
I didn't die and I ain't complainin'.
I ain't blamin' you.
I didn't know that the words you said to me
meant more to me than they ever could you?
I didn't lie and I ain't sayin'
I told the whole truth.
I didn't know that this game we were playin'
even had a set of rules.
We named our children after towns
that we've never been to.
And it's true that the clouds just hunger around
like black Cadillacs outside a funeral.
And we were laughing at the stars
while our feet clung tight to the ground.
So pleased with ourselves
for using so many verbs and nouns.
But we were all still just dumb, dumb, dumber
than the dirt, dirt, dirt on the ground.
Well wings on flames, kings with no names,
well this place just ain't got right air right now.
You were so all over town but still so Crayola brown.
Well you should run 'round yourself right now.
And we were done, done, done
with all the fuck, fuck, fuckin' around.
Circlin' round.
ok, so, yeah...
05.10.04 (1:04 pm) [edit]i need some opinions on my blog. please do not hesitate to tell me either a) how much it sux or b) how much you like it.
mostly, i am wondering if i should change the header...colors...and size. i do kind of like how things are right now, but i am also considering switching over to PRO. my only reason for pro is so i can use a template of my own design...it will be a much better lay out.
so, please tell me what you think of my blog. the header, the colors, the content, and the size. thanks!
another bit of perpetual bliss...
05.10.04 (11:57 am) [edit]ok, so, its my first day back from the cabin. can't say i'm happy about being in the office, but at least i'm getting paid. it was a lot of fun up at the cabin though. can't wait to see what the next few months will bring. i know that it will be really good...i've got both feet on the ground and my eyes towards my goals. so, heres todays crap..................
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"Sometimes love will pick you up by the short airs...and jerk the heck out of you." - Denise Dobbs, Northern Exposure
"Do not fear death so much, but rather the inadequate life." - Bertolt Brecht
"It is, I think, an indisputable fact that Americans are, as Americans, the most self- conscious people in the world, and the most addicted to the belief that the other nations are in a conspiracy to under-value them." - Henry James
FACTS....
- The longest name is the Hebrew Scriptures (Old Testament) is Malhershalahashbaz.
- Queen Isabella of Spain bathed only twice in her life -- once at her birth, and once just before her wedding.
- Many superstitions have arisen over butterflies. Sicilians believe that good luck will follow if a butterfly comes into the house and will prevent it flying out again. British and U.S. superstition recommends anyone who needs a new set of clothes to bite the head off a butterfly.
- "Passion purpura" is the medical term for a hickey.
CONGRATS TO [url=http://anonymousx.tblog.com]anonymousx[/url] !!!
True or False
1. Bob Dylan stole the song "Blowin' in the Wind" from a New Jersey high school student. - F
2. Paul Simon took the title of his song Mother and Child Reunion from the name of a chicken-and-egg dish he spotted on a Chinese restaurant's menu. - T
Define THIS....
What does 'vacillate' mean? as anonymousx put it: sway from one side to another
from muchoflaca's blog
05.10.04 (10:59 am) [edit]found this stupid quiz on muchoflaca's blog and decided i was feeling bored and dumb enough to take it. LOL so sue me.
You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.
What kind of kiss are you?
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how to kill a bear in 2 seconds.
05.09.04 (12:39 pm) [edit]not really though. however, i would love a manual that taught you that. i suppose it would be almost impossible, unless it had a gun involved. then again, i don't think i'd ever kill a bear.
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did you know that gilligan had a first name? yeah, it was only used once on the show in the first episode...his name was willy.
woah! i never knew that Dr. Seuss and Kurt Vonnegut went to college together. they were even in the same fraternity, where Seuss decorated the fraternity house walls with drawings of his strange characters.
Before Prohibition, Shlitz Brewery owned more property in Chicago than anyone else, except The Catholic Church.
omg, did you know non-dairy creamer is flammable? thats fuckin wrong!
In the four major US professional sports, (Baseball, Basketball, Football, and Hockey), there are only seven teams whose nicknames do not end with an "S:" Basketball: The Miami Heat, The Utah Jazz, The Orlando Magic. Baseball: The Boston Red Sox, The Chicago White Sox. Hockey: The Colorado Avalanche, The Tampa Bay Lightning. Football: None.
ok, thats all for now. check back later for some mind boggling questions and such. much love!
go to bed
05.09.04 (12:29 am) [edit]i keep telling myself that. yes, i am tired...no i do not have to wake up early. i'm just not sure if i should go to bed or if there is some mysterious thing out there to be discovered...which will all be ruined if i go to sleep. i know that there really isn't anything exciting to look forward to tonite, but theres always a chance. lets see here, if i go to bed i can dream of all the mysterious things of which i speak or i could stay up looking at websites or watching tv. i could stay awake and waste a bunch of otherwise slept away time.
tomorrow is the last day for me and my semi-vacation. its kind of sad that i have to leave nature to venture back into the hell we call reality. at least i am going back with a new feeling of awareness. plus, its not like i won't ever be coming back, but it will be awhile. thats a good thing though, i don't get too used to being up here which keeps each experience unique. i could live in a place like this in my later years, but i guess the city is the place for me right now...no matter how much i hate it. just more work days and weekends to waste. its all good though, all apart of daily life. routine. hurray.
so, i guess thats why i don't want to go to bed, tomorrow will come sooner. tomorrow means no more deer, no more eagles (saw one today, it was AMAZING), and no more being able to go on a nice hike or fishing. i can do that near the city, but you know that the city is only 15 minutes away. argg. i suppose there is plenty to look forward to at the bottom of the mountain. besides, i gotta keep my feet on the ground and my head close by.
goodnight.
Need help with an apology letter?
05.08.04 (8:30 pm) [edit]ok, what the fuck? while chattin a bit in tblurt, i look up and theres this add that says that...then it says "customizable templates." WHAT THE FUCK!? ok, doesn't that kind of take out the whole meaning of apology? isn't there a point where you should just fuckin say what needs to be said or at least write it in your own way? do you really need to get a template for an apology? people are so damn dumb sometimes, i swear. next its going to be something like: "need help breaking up? - click for pre-written solutions." god, i don't know. heres some things i could use a template for...
1. a website. wait, nevermind, i make my own.
2. a manuscript. u know? u write something, but aren't sure how it needs to be to send it in for publishing.
3. eating apples. come on, don't u agree? wouldn't it be helpful to have a template built so you know how to hold it and where to bite?
jeezus, people! wake up and smell the cornbread. you need to apologize? APOLOGIZE!! you want to break up? do it or don't...or even see if the problem can be worked out.
i just realized something...i never did click the link...maybe its not what i thought?
gone fishing
05.08.04 (8:02 pm) [edit]woke up much later than i would have liked to, but i am on a semi-vacation so its not like it mattered much. i just would have liked to gotten out onto the water earlier. didn't end up gettin out there until like 2:30...stayed til 7:30 so its all good. ended up catching about 10 fish. all fairly small...around 4 - 6lbs i guess. i have some din din now...lol. i'm posting a pretty crappy pic of the lake, but you get the general idea. i just wish i could take a picture that captures the entire lake, but thats literally impossible...its a huge lake. good stuff. looking forward to going hikin a little bit and maybe fish a little more before i head home tomorrow afternoon/evening. so, i'll write more later probably...
random daze
05.08.04 (11:54 am) [edit]ok, so, todays random junk is going to be just a little different. hope you enjoy.
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"Ever wonder if illiterate people get the full effect of alphabet soup?" - John Mendosa
"I hate to advocate drugs, alcohol, violence, or insanity to anyone, but they've always worked for me." - Hunter S. Thompson
"I don't make jokes. I just watch the government and report the facts." - Will Rogers
"I haven't committed a crime. What I did was fail to comply with the law." - David Dinkins
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Tourists visiting Iceland should know that tipping at a restaurant is considered an insult!
Until the nineteenth century, solid blocks of tea were used as money in Siberia!
The Nobel Peace Prize medal depicts three naked men with their hands on each other's shoulders!
When glass breaks, the cracks move faster than 3,000 miles per hour. To photograph the event, a camera must shoot at a millionth of a second!
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AND JUST FOR SCUBADIVA, HERE ARE 2 ESSAY QUESTIONS...
1. Name and briefly describe three common aspects of addictive behavior.
2. Describe five common symptoms of depression.
great view
05.07.04 (9:59 pm) [edit]ok, i have to post one more picture from my cabin to make you a bit more jealous. this picture was taken about a mile away about maybe 4 hrs ago i guess. its a place we like to hike near a lot, but it is only about a hundred feet from the road...lol :wink:
dinky creek
05.07.04 (9:29 pm) [edit]well, today went hiking a little bit at dinky creek...such an amazing place. the water is so calming as it flows across the rocks. thought i'd post a little picture of it for everyone to look at and get jealous. lol. i'm glad its this time of season, the water is runnin!
TODAYS RANDOMNESS
05.07.04 (2:43 pm) [edit]so, here we go again. have i made anyone feel stupid besides myself? hmmmm, you're all probably too scared to admit what you don't know! bahahahaha. j/k.
:roll:
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The bones of movable joints are covered with a clear, thick, lubricating liquid called the synovial fluid, which acts like oil to make the joints work smoothly. If it weren't for this fluid, you would squeak when you walk.
One in ten of Relate's clients last year was having relationship problems associated with computers.
Mother-in-law is an anagram of Woman Hitler.
The fur coat that Orson Welles wears as Bayan the Mongolian warlord in the film The Black Rose was so heavy it took two wardrobe men to help him into it.
St Nicholas (270-310AD) was a bishop of Myra in modern-day Turkey renowned for his kindess to children. The Dutch corrupted the name St Nicholas to Sinterklaas, which English-speaking populations adapted to Santa Claus. In his earlier incarnations Santa Claus was often shown as tall and thin, given to wearing a variety of colours and accompanied by an angel. Then in 1931 Coca-Cola hired the Swedish artist Haddon Sundblom to design a Christmas ad campaign. Sundblom had the idea of redesigning Santa in Coca-Cola's corporate red and white colours. He chose a retired Coca-Cola salesman - plump and bearded - to be his model for the campaign, and the modern Santa was born.
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TRUE AND FALSE!!!
TODAYS WINNER IS [url=http://maganda.tblog.com]MAGANDA[/url] !!! CONGRATS!!!
1. The United States standard railroad gauge derives from the original specification for an Imperial Roman war chariot.
2. A clause in the document annexing Texas to the United States allowed for Texas be divided into five different states.
3. The middle name of President Harry Truman was just the letter 'S.'
4. The four kings in a deck of playing cards represent Charlemagne, David, Caesar, and Alexander.
waking up
05.07.04 (2:01 pm) [edit]here are two very short poems inspired by what happened on tuesday night/wednesday morning. i've been feeling a bit distant since it happened, but i am beginning to get used to the feelings that are inside of me. there are a lot of changes i am going through as i have begun to pick apart whats going on inside of me. i don't regret what happened that night because it allowed me to open my eyes to whats happening inside of me...i am able now to discover who i am and can be.
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a quiet whisper
in a lonely shade
surrounded by ancient secrets
of a life i've known little of
and theres plenty out there
left to see
plenty left
to set me free...
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theres a new feeling
on the wind
its grown calmer
warmer
more enchanting than before
but its something to get used to
before i feel at home
and i think it will be better
when i can finally settle in...
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comments welcome and appreciated. thanks.
my cabin
05.07.04 (11:28 am) [edit]well, thank god. a place to relax. decided i really needed it after the week i have had...so i told work i'm off until monday. lol. i am so happy to be up here in Shaver Lake, CA. the weather is spectacular and inspiring. i am so glad my parents bought this place and allow me to come up here whenever i want. they are also in the process of building another house up here...when it is complete they will be retiring, selling this house, and moving into the other one.
anyway, i guess i'll be staying up here until sunday and dont really know how much i will be signing on, but we'll see. and now i am going to go look for some good random shit for todays random bull.
yeah.
05.06.04 (3:06 pm) [edit]i would LOVE to have a comp like this at the office!! seriously, it would solve the problem of so many of my headaches...except maybe buying a new one everytime...hmm...maybe not such a good idea after all? but i NEED it...
enough! enough already!
05.06.04 (1:08 pm) [edit]ok, decided that i am going to knock todays first post down a knotch since we can't have too much seriousness going on. after all, i am me as you are you....umm...ok, yeah, whatever. i am now going to try to make you feel stupid.........
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Your chances of being killed by a shark are 30 times less that being killed by lightening.
The Bull shark seldom grows longer than 11ft , but has the highest level of testosterone of any living creature.
Only 12.7% of those attacked by a shark are killed.
More people are killed by a donkey every year than get killed by plane crashes.
A snail can sleep for three years. (that'd be nice)
A hummingbird weighs less than a penny.
In Atlanta, Georgia, it is illegal to tie a giraffe to a telephone pole or street lamp.
In his will, William Shakespeare left his wife his second best bed.
WINNER ON THE FOLLOWING IS [url=http://supercarla.tblog.com]SUPERCARLA[/url]!! GOOD JOB.
1. Summer intern at prestigious law firm sends embarrassing message to co-workers. T
2. Intern for U.S. Senator sends embarrassing break-up e-mail to girlfriend. T
3. Actor disguised as a beggar used to test divinity students' compassion. T
4. Soviet Premier Nikita Khrushchev was denied permission to visit Disneyland in 1959. T
Tuesday night.....Wednesday morning....
05.06.04 (11:57 am) [edit]well, i guess my spot on hot blogs is all fucked up now, good job ScubaDiva. i am not able to update much anymore...so...yeah. anyway, i'm sitting at work right now wondering if i should in fact talk about what happened on Tuesday night and where i was on Wednesday morning. i suppose it was in fact deeply personal and a little bit disturbing, but i am sure everyone has gone through it or something like it. its somethng that makes you take a few steps back, look straight ahead, and realize how much you've been missing. you know, i think i may just have to talk a bit about it...it was a good lesson to learn after a terrible mistake.
on tueday night, i went out to some place to see artichoke again. i wasn't planning on drinking that day since i wanted to slow it down some, but that plan went to shit after people started buying me drinks and i would have felt bad to turn it down as it would have wasted some money. plus, i hadn't told anyone that i wasn't planning on drinking so it was all on me. anyway, the band was awesome and we all had a bunch of drinks together after the show. at this point, i was no longer thinking or paying any attention to anything that was going on...i was consumed in my own little world. we decided it was time to get home as i had work in the morning. so, we made it back to my place and wanted to smoke a bowl so we went up to my apartment. next thing i remember is standing outside with about 20 pain killers in my mouth.
on wednesday morning i woke up with an iv and about 5 cops standing around me asking if i was 51-50. guess they wanted to take me to psych and chain me to my bed. good thing that didn't happen. later on wednesday morning i woke up and was able to talk regularly and the doctors told me that i had drank close to the toxic level and swallowed about 30 pain killers. this was all very VERY scary, considering i didn't remember any of it. when everything was over with and they let me go, i went home and took a shower.
now, as i sat in the shower, i realized that i need to wake up and explore myself a lot further. looking at the situation now, i am able to understand the feelings that may have caused that to happen. i've been at odds with my father for a few years now and we don't talk much...a story i may not tell...or might, you never know. but i have a deep regret and a lot of misplaced anger towards my father.
i know now that i do not want to drink anymore...i think theres probably a HUGE problem forming there. and i think i am going to call my dad and make good. and one more thing i am going to do is talk to my mom and tell her whats going on inside me...she has always been there to listen.
TOP TEN
05.04.04 (11:10 am) [edit]Ok, so, this is whats going down:
Each week I am going to post my personal top ten list right here! The order has nothing to do with anything, these are just blogs that I have really enjoyed during the week...here we go.
1. [url=http://j.tblog.com]J[/url] - Just one hot ass chick blogging in the valley of California!
2. [url=http://fotocali.tblog.com]Fotocali[/url] - Some damn good photography brought to you from Sacramento, CA.
3. [url=http://krazedone.tblog.com]Krazedone[/url] - This is one fun woman to talk to! Just a bunch of random funn(ness)!
4. [url=http://chicalookate.tblog.com...]Chicalookate[/url] - Some more damn good photography!
5. [url=http://muchoflaca.tblog.com]MuchoFlaca[/url] - This girl is a lot of fun to talk to and always an interesting read. Some poetry, some randomness, but always a fun girl.
6. [url=http://scubadiva.tblog.com]ScubaDiva[/url] - Very funny reading. Always something new to glance at, always makes me laugh.
7. [url=http://anonymousx.tblog.com]Anonymousx[/url] - Some good poetry, some funny reading, pretty short but very interesting...good blog!
8. [url=http://ladybean.tblog.com]LadyBean[/url] - More complete random fun! Look at her recipe, its fuckin GOOD!
9. [url=lostlove4ever.tblog.com]LostLove4Ever[/url] - Good blog friend, we chit chat alot and shes got a great blog.
10. [url=http://redtigress.tblog.com]Red Tigress[/url] - Great source of information about how Jews are being affected worldwide and such. Damn good!
enough! ENOUGH DAMMIT!
05.04.04 (10:03 am) [edit]ok, so what we have here is a failure to....wait....i know its gotta be better than communicate...hmm. nope, nevermind, nothing good. go away. wait, no, don't do that....read on and leave a comment...YEAH! thats the ticket....comment....
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these are some things i am willing to bet you didn't have a fuckin clue about...if you did, diregard what i just said.
Roman statues were made with detachable heads, so that one head could be removed and replaced by another.
Rats can swim for half a mile without resting, and they can tread water for 3 days straight.
The longest one-syllable word in the English language is "screeched."
Canada imports on average approx. 822 Russian-made hockey sticks a day.
In Miami, it's illegal for men to be seen publicly in any kind of strapless dress.
At the end of the Beatles' song "A Day in the Life," an ultrasonic whistle, audible only to dogs, was recorded by Paul McCartney for his Shetland sheepdog.
On October 24, 1901, Annie Edson Taylor became the first person documented to successfully descend Niagara Falls in a barrel.
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ok, fine, maybe you did know that shit...however, i bet you can't get the true and false right! if you do, you can have 50 tbucks, but i dare you to even TRY. CONGRATS TO x0br0ken0x!!!! She got the answers right first...after the process of elimination. lol, but good job!
1. A complicated Honda Accord commercial required 606 takes to get right and was achieved without the use of computer-generated images. - T
2. Police officers who use slim jims to assist locked-out motorists have been killed by airbags. - F
3. Gang members drive without headlights on, then shoot whoever flashes them. - F
4. Three school janitors blow up their shed trying to kill a gopher. - T
5. The cockpit recorder from Alaska Airlines Flight 261 revealed a pastor's wife led passengers in prayer just before the plane dived into the ocean. - F
END
05.03.04 (4:11 pm) [edit]one last entry before i go home for the day. i've been talking to people on tblurt recently about dating crap etc. turns out most people on there are used to getting hurt. what the fuck is up with that? jeezus, i wish i knew these people personally because the shit they talk about makes me so angry that i just want to fuck up the people that hurt them. god, i hate shit like that. it really does set me off.
look, you meet someone and fall in love. then the trust builds, the love builds, and everything is fine and dandy. then, out of nowhere...BAM! everything is fucked and the world sucks. you don't treat people like that, its something you DO NOT EVER DO! i have made mistakes in the past and ended up hurting someone very close to me, but i didn't plan for it and i had never felt worse about anything in my life. to have someone love you as much as they do and to love them back equally and then have it all go to shit...that MAKES ME FUCKIN MAD.
ok ok ok, i need to calm down just a little bit because there really is no use for anger in this world and no room for pain. people want to keep hurting people, thats on them. i'll teach where i can and regret where i can't...though its not really my problem if i don't know the people. at least thats what i tell myself to cool down. argg, just pisses me off.
good day.
getting to know you, getting to know all about you.......
05.03.04 (2:58 pm) [edit]ok ok ok, don't ask me why i took the time to fill this out...but i think you're obligated to fill this out now as well. so just do it.
YOU
.Name:chris
.birthday:10/02/81
.siblings: art and ben (2 half sisters: aishah and sophia)
.hair color:brown
.eye color:brown (sometimes with gold specks...)
.height:5'11"
.done drugs:this is america
.eaten an entire box of oreos:hell yeah
.been on stage:yes
.gotten in a car accident:yes
.dyed your hair:nope! never!
.choked in front of people:yup
.gone to school in your pajamas:i don't have pajamas.
.gotten detention:yup
.loved someone so much that it made you cry:yes
OPPOSITE SEX
do you like someone right now:nope...well...kinda
do they know:no.
what do you look for in the opposite sex:personality,looks,hum or
so you think you could see yourself marrying this person you like: marriage? hahahaha, not quite.
FRIENDS
who do you see most often: jeff, yeshi, jon, russ, adrian
who is your most annoying friend:all of them lol
who do you email the most:none of them lol
who is the loudest:depends on drunk level
who is the shyest:none of them really. me?
who has the best room:eh...
who is the most horny:chris
who do you trust the most: lonnie
who knows the most about you: lonnie
favorite friends of the opposite sex: lonnie, carolyn, and yeshi
favorite friends of the same sex:eh...no favorite there
WITHIN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU
had a serious talk: nope
hugged someone:yes
missed someone: yes
gotten along with your parents:yup
fought with a friend:yes
cried: nope
felt empty:a little
DO YOU LIKE TO
give hugs:yes
give massages:yup
take walks in the rain:yes, because i like puddles
go to the beach:yeah, sometimes
watch tv:yes
do homework: i'm all done there
play in the snow:hells yeah
stay up all night talking to a friend:depends on the friend
work out:nope
talk on the phone:sometimes
do freaky things:fuck yeah!
be wild:fuck yeah!
WHICH ONE OF YOUR FRIENDS
are most likely to grow up to be a model: hahaha
has known you the longest:lonnie
do you know most about:lonnie
HAVE YOU EVER
been to a concert:yes
been out of state:yep
gone skinny dipping:YUP
ran around naked:quite a bit
broken a bone:nope
cheated on a test:of course
stalked someone:hell no
LOVE
single or taken:single
if you were gonna go out with anyone, who would it be: dunno right now
EXTRAS
what is you worst habit:smoking
what makes you really mad: stuff
what is your earliest memory: hmmm...i dunno...
NOW
where are you: work
are you wearing any jewelry:hell no
when was the last time you showered:6 am today
what color pants do you have on:khaki
what song are you listening to: nuthin
what is the last thing you said:what? wait. ok.
what is your computer desk made of: wood
what was the last thing you ate:fried burrito
what would you really want to be doing right now:having sex
if you were a crayon, what color would you be:re